I'm writing here because I'm procrastinating. BUT. My LJ entry in my procrastination schedule is usually at like... 10:30. So I'm getting better at this. Kinda.

This whole day I was so tiiiiiiiiiired. My mom said senioritis, and I was like, "OH MY GOD, IT IS. UGHAJSHAJSHDJSHJDHHHHHHHH" So yeah. I'm so mentally done with school right now. Grawrgle.

Math- Oh shit, what happened? Oh right. Notes. Notes on things I didn't care much for. But notes none the less. Nyerghhhhhh.

Art of Film- Totally cried. I thought I would, too. Because I'm a total sap. Ojeda had to remind us to not judge it, and I took that advice, big time because I'm the "put yourself in the other person's shoes" kinda gal. More so now because I play a terrible terrible person for the play. BUT MY HUSBAND LEFT ME!! --Whoops, got into character there...

Drama- I just annotated BNW this period. I seriously don't do anything in this class. I. Love. It.

English- Got an 18/20 on my annotations. Which I deserved, I believe. Because I -demolished- the Preface. His lectures kinda blergheddddd with me, though.

Lunch- Fun times, fun times. The banner inside Turley's phone now reads "Callie is my fav gf." Which is true. I am her favorite girlfriend.

PoliSci- Got a not great grade on the book thing, but I don't care too much. I wish I had that book proposal, though. Woulda gotten a half point higher, meaning a B. ]:

[Edit] I FORGOT TO MENTION. After class, I totally left BNW under my seat and I was all "Rawwwwrrr, I don't wanna go back!" But I turned around to, and there was Daniel Coffee, with my book! I know he's probably not the best person to align myself with because he's one of those social kids and stuff, but I really do think he's sweet. And that was just a little heartwarming experience for the day. :]

AND THEN I WENT HOME.

I like driving to school myself. I hate the fact that my mom's leg is hurting, but I looooooooove being home at a nice time. (Kaleb, I think your wish to do housework is rubbing off on me 'cause I hung up the laundry for my mom today without her asking me. This better not persist.)

So I will not talk about my day, besides the fact that I'm pretty sure the good looking boy that plays my husband in the play is probably most likely what I thought he was. God, it's Ponytail all over again. [shame] Oh well. Boys stink.

LET'S DO A MEME, INSTEAD.

[Reply to this post, and I'll tell you one reason why I like you. Then put this in your own journal, and spread the love.]

It is now time to go sleepy sleepy nap time.

I woke up this morning and it hadn't hit me for like, 5 minutes that it was my birthday.

I then got breakfast and a Bakugan card. I don't even watch Bakugan, my dad just saw it and probably thought, "Hey! It's those japanese cartoons that Callie likes!" So when I got the card I loled.

Then I went to play practice and it was really fun. I like the people there and I like what we do and it's very very lovely. 8]

And now I'm home, and I'm gonna have an anime/doctor who marathon.

I always think that the stuff that comes on the internet on my birthday is like... a present for me, and there's been some really good youtube videos, but no anime. But I watched Kimi ni Todoke -yesterday- and it was cool.

I have the page for registering to vote on my computer now, too. I'm very excited about that. It's the only thing that's gonna change for me, besides not having a curfew. That I'm excited about too. I might stay up all night somewhere in public with friends, eventually. Just to stick it to the man.

Now it's time for that marathon. Loooooooove relaxing.

Soooooooooo today was the big senior picture thing. The administrators made us take our ninja masks off 'cause they wanted to see our faces or something. Lame. D:

AP Stats- It was the morning, I wasn't really aware of what was happening.

AoF- Finished up Bonnie and Clyde. I think I liked it, but I don't know. It sucked that they didn't have my ninja skills, though.

Drama- This was after the senior picture and I had something to type and turn in to Frerichs, so I Jude went to the Library and did my homework. Seriously, that's all I do in this class anymore.

English- I didn't really have much to talk about with my partner for the activity, so we sorta just traded précis and decided that the other got what we were getting at. Not bad, just boring.

Lunch- People in the japanese club were too self conscious about making fools of themselves in public!! Hah. But the presentation went easy peasy, it's a good thing that was the only homework I did last night.

PoliSci- I was about to fall asleep in this class, for shiz. I feel bad for Luna, him being all injured and stuff. D:

After school I had honors theatre practice, and I had to get there early to get my face castes for a mask I going to be wearing. The people put Vaseline alllllllll over my face and then put on strips with plaster on it. It was really fun because the people working on my mask were nice. They were too funny, though! I was laughing so much, I almost messed up my mask! The rest of practice was really cool, too. Lots of interesting things to do. And afterwards I learned that I'm an actress chosen to go to this meeting thing in Sacramento for the play, it's a really cool opportunity and is gonna be lots if fun!! I'm having an amazing time, I'm unlovely with this production already.

Well it's time for this queen to get her beauty sleep. Night night~!

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So I downloaded a batch torrent of Moyashimon. I know the BSS team is filled with bitches, but they put out quality stuff.

Working on Gurren Lagann now, too. But that's gonna take a while.

I'm really mad that my mom made me stay home today. But I understand why she did it. I really did need another day to recover from Bryanna's New Year's party. And I've finished Brave New World, finally. [sigh] Now I just have to write 3 5-10 page essays.

I finally started going on DailyBooth again. I don't know how, but all my bookmarks that I moved to the bookmarks menu because a part of the bookmarks bar. So I've just gone back to all the old sites that wasted my time.

Except twitter. I still suck at twitter.

I don't know how I feel about going back to school. I'm screwed for a few of my classes... Not like that matters, because I've already been accepted at SFSU, and for both Shimer and Boston I decided not to care or apply. Not like St. John's will really care if I get a B instead of an A anyways. And there's no way I'm graduating in white. I ain't pulling up my GPA that quick. But grades are beside the point. I'm excited to do the whole school activities thing again. Like seeing people every day. I miss that. But I don't like waking up. In fact, I hate that. Buuuuuuuut, I am gonna start honors theatre soon, which I'm SUPER excited for. And there's other drama stuff that's coming up. I already have a song picked out for musical theatre- "The Wizard and I" it's perfect for my vocal range and it's a fantasmic song.

Let's just say I'm divided on my feelings. That works.

I like my iPhone. It makes everything easy. And I mean everything. I check facebook on my iPhone more often than the computer 'cause it takes less time. And I have games on there. And a lightsaber. Which I'm going use to battle with Amanda on Monday. Another thing I'm excited for when school comes around. Doing crazy shit that makes regular kids afraid to talk to me.

Hmmmmmmm... I think I'll go work on St. John's essays, now.

So, last night was the New Year's Party at Bryanna's house.

It was fun. Met some new dudes, creeped people out, and watched Glee.

Seriously, that's what we did most of the time. Glee. I wanted to get to the Kristin Chenoweth episode, but that's like... the 5th one or so, and the episodes are like, an hour long. But, for 5 hours, we watched Glee. And talked about Glee. And made creepy jokes, but that's a given.

ALSO, yesterday I got my prom dress. Early, huh? It's pretty... Yeah. 8D

BUT. Back to that party thing. 30 minuted before the New Year actually came, we turned off Glee and turned on... whatever regular people watch on New Year's. Guess what we did for 20 minutes? Played apples to apples. Hell yes. I got three green cards.

After the ball dropped and we did the whole counting thing it was literally 20 minutes of pictures, not kidding... Normal people, yeesh.

But after that, people who weren't sleeping voer started going home so we said our goodbyes to those people, and all that stuff, and when Cree, Bryanna, Katie, and I finally got settled, with our pajamas and all, guess what we did? That's right. Continued the Glee marathon. We were gonna skip over one episode, but we ended up watching it anyways.

We stayed up 'till.... well, I stayed up 'till like, 5:00 am and finally got like, 2 hours of shut-eye. Or two and a half. I think I woke up right as the Glee kids were winning regionals. I think I went back to sleep and got my half hour in then, though.

And now I'm a mess. A complete mess. I need real food in me... and... I think sleep would work, too.

Hiatus.

Sooooo, I'm waiting for my computer to charge up long enough so that I can go to sleep with the music.

I got my nerdfighter T-shirt in the mail. I like it a lot, 'cause I think it sends the right message to the right kinda guys. It goes, "Oh won't you be in nerdfighter like with me?"

So I saw Zombieland with Nils, Luke, Lauren, Lina, Bryanna, and Karl. It seriously scared me. Ugh. Two clowns. Two scary clowns. But that's beside the point of the movie. It was funny, and it had decent editing. Nothing too fancy with cinematography or anything. And nothing too deep. The main character was pretty much the Classic Hollywood Hero.

BUT IT SCARED ME. SO MUCH GORE, IT WAS GROSS!! >____________<

I wanted to see "Capitalism: A Love Story" more. DD:

I need to see "Bride of Frankenstein" for Art of Film. But I kinda doubt I will.

Ummmmmm... replaced Nils' glasses. And I think Amanda shoulda given money to help, but she's her.

OH. I ORDERED MY NEW GLASSES TODAY~! They're pretty thick frames. And they've got a nice color. Not something I'd usually do, but it's pretty neutral and wearable. I can't wait to get them in~~~!

Grrrr, I wanna go to college already.

That's what I'm gonna do all day tomorrow. College apps. Yep.

Hmmmm. 46% should be enough 'till I fall asleep.

Night guys!

So. Water polo is probably maybe I have no idea gonna happen. All I know is I'm not doing Surge this fall. Hopefully I can still play in the tournaments. We'll see. But this means I get to watch House and Glee!

So St. John's keeps sending me stuff. It makes me giddy every time I get something from them. Just gave one that they sent me about paying for the college to my mom. She's reading it. 8]

I'm doing Ianto's monologue to Jack for drama. It's fun because I basically play a man. But he's in love with another man. So.... I might just say Gwen and fool everyone. Or they won't know that Ianto is a boy name.

I think I might actually read Utopia.

Arghhhhh, I've gotta read Eat The Rich... And the Berlin Stories.

And Poe.

And Cormac McCarthy.

And the rest of Narnia... ore not.

THANK GOD I HAVE TIME.

Oh, note to all of my good friendsies out there. If I ever say, "I'm bored." to you, you yell at me and say, "GO WORK ON YOUR COLLEGE ESSAY."

SHIT. NOW? NOW I'M GONNA GET MY PERIOD? WHEN I WANT TO GET TO SLEEP? DAMN.

I guess that means I need to go. More betterer journals coming never!

1. Name:
2. Birthday:
3. Where do you live:
4: What are you studying/What are you working as:
5. What makes you happy:
6. What are you listening to now/have listened to last:
7. What is particularly good/bad about my LJ:
8. An interesting fact about you:
9. Are you in love/have a crush at the moment:
10. Favorite place to be:
11. Favorite lyric:
12. Best time of the year:
13. Weirdest food you like:

RECOMMEND
1. A film:
2. A book:
3. A song:
4: A band:

FANDOM
1. Favorite Fandom:
2. OTP/OT3:
3. Icon/Fic Journal (so I can join):

PLUS
1. One thing you like about me:
2. Two things you like about yourself:
3. Put this in your lj so I can tell you what I think of you?

AP Stats- HAHAHAHA, DID WAY TOO MUCH WORK ON THAT PROJECT. EFF.

Art Of Film- INDIANS ARE SCARY. And seriously. What was wrong with Dallas. Was she a whore? Because other people have been more whorey. And I feel really bad about thinking the bad cowboy was cute. BUT HE HAD DARK HAIR. I'M GETTING A FETISH FOR DARK HAIR.

Drama- [sighface] I can't talk about this class 'cause of auditions.

AP Language- He took my paper. And I don't care about my grade, I really don't. I care about everyone else caring about their grade, if they do. Oh well. It was really unexpected, but it was interesting... Yeah.

Lunch- Yaaaaaaaaay, japanese club... might be cool this year, let's hope!!

PoliSci- Dr. Luna is so cool. He was lecturing during the fire drill, and some d-bag was all, "why do you talk so much?" And Luna was all, "Because we like to -learn- so we don't end up working for minimum wage at Subway Restaurant!" And we were all, "[laughlaughlaughlaughlaugh] Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!" And Luna's like, "What? Someone has to cut the foot-long sandwiches in half! Probably a machine in a few years!" So fun. So fun.

Hung around in Carr's class for 6th period. 6th period sucks, by the way.

So the auditions were okay for Crucible, but I'm pretty sure I'm not gonna get a part. So I'm sad. But more than sad, I'm pissed. 'Cause I've put my time into drama, and I deserve a part. And probably more than the girls who always get parts. And CERTAINLY more than a girl that's younger than me. So I want that part. But I'm pretty sure as hell I won't get it. ]=<

AT LEAST IRA (my iPod) IS FINALLY WORKING AGAIN. I LOVE YOU, IRA.

1- AP Stats: Mr. Hockmuth seems pretty cool. Not like, awesome or anything, but not like some crazy psycho teacher either. He's pretty chill.

2- Art of Film: Very very very very very very very [1,039,293,092,823,024,059,248,283,910,021 very's later] awesome class. So cool. So fantastic. Love Ojeda. All there is to say.

3- Drama: It's pretty easy peasy. And it'll be more fun now, too. 'Cause advanced kids get to do stuff with 3-4's.

4- AP Language: Frerrichs is exactly like Myette! I adore him! And yeah, I'm reading nonfiction because of him, but it's fun nonfiction. And I adore him! He's as crazy as I am!

5- PoliSci: ...Sometimes. Anyways. It's a pretty serious class. But it looks pretty fun. Hope I do well, though.

6- Athletics: I just hope this doesn't have to change into something else. [crosses fingers]

HERE'S TO A COOL SENIOR YEAR!!

MUSIC MEME

( God it's been a while since I did a cut. Anyways. Interesting stuff in here. )

TEN THINGS YOU WISH YOU COULD SAY TO 10 PEOPLE:

10.  I miss you, we should really hang out more.  I just... can't handle your best friend anymore...  but thanks for sticking with me.

9. I miss you sooooooo much!  Like, so so so so so much.  You need to get back here and be one of my best friends again.  For reals.  I wish I could have gone on that really long trip with you, I need to call you more and be a better friend.

8. You're lovely...  Sometimes I worry about myself and you, but you're really so great.  Thank you so much for everything, it was a fantastic experience, and I couldn't have asked for more.  You're gonna be a tough act to follow.

7. Honestly, hanging out with you is getting a ted bit annoying.  It's not like you do it on purpose, I know, but sometimes I just feel put down by you.  And it's weird.  It feels like you're nice to me when it's just you and me and then rude with other people around.

6. I'm really glad I've gotten closer to you over the past few months.  It's not like we share our most darkest secrets yet or anything, but it's really fun hanging out with you.  Even if you shop way too fast for me.

5. You're the prettiest and sweetest girl ever.  You totally deserve your significant other, I hope you guys have a long life, and even kids and stuff.  Really.  I never even knew we were so close until we were, but you're awesome and cool and thanks for being my friend.

4. You're getting slightly annoying, and the more boy things you do the more annoyed I am with you, but... you're an okay guy.  I really want you to get over her, but not by using other girls.  By coming to terms with it yourself.  That, and STOP BEING AN ANNOYING BOY.  But I said that already.

3. I don't like to hear about you.  And what sucks about that is that you're everywhere.  All of my old connections, and it's starting to get to me a little.  If he said you weren't friends with her, then why the hell are you still being the way you are with me?

2. It's creepy, and weird, and a little masochistic, but I really do think that our friendship will last.  I mean, it has this long.  And every time that I say I doubt our friendship I'm honestly just kidding.  You're the type of friend that I've seen every flaw of, but for some reason I still don't care.  Honestly and truly, thanks for always sticking around.

1. It hurts to think about you.  And I've thought about this a million times to myself.  And every time it still hurts.  I still brood over it any time that this little drama slips into my mind.  It's a good thing that I'm away from you, because in retrospect, it was just a time bomb.  Because that's pretty much what all of your relationships seem to be.  And even with your hypocrisy, and all the other things stacked against you, I still can't be calm with the whole thing.  I'm incredibly mad at you, but I'm a hundred times more hurt by you.


NINE THINGS ABOUT YOURSELF:

9. I'm a ginger.  And a bloody proud one.

8. I like to think that I'm really rather confident in myself.  I try to stick to my guns about stuff.  I've been doing it more, now.

7. I want to go to college, like, now.  But not just any college, the college of my dreams.  And it's bad to be hanging on that, but I'm just so -excited- about it.

6. My mom says it's stuffy in my room, but I think it's just cozy.

5. I've been losing touch with anime recently.

4. I blame my recent addiction to SciFi.

3. I love reading and having books.  I want a huge library someday.

2. Once, I was so worried about sticking to the norm too much, that I went completely out of my way and took a different highway home.  I try to be as impulsive as I can be.

1. I am very happy.  Even with bumps in the road, and my litter tiffs here and there about myself, I'm so extremely happy.  And very grateful for it.


EIGHT WAYS TO WIN YOUR HEART:

8. Common interests.  Seriously, if you're a fan of the same stuff I'm a fan of, I will jump on you quicker than a pile of money.  Well, almost as quick as.

7. Flirting.  It gets my attention pretty quickly.

6. Being nice.  Just, you know.  A compliment, or sympathy for something. Even in small doses, it works wonders.

5. Being... single...?  I DON'T KNOW, I'M RUNNING OUT OF IDEAS.

4. Being able to drive on your own.  Seriously, transportation is important.

3. A good sense of humor.  And by that, I mean a good sense of crude humor.  Political corectness is soooo not my game.

2. The fact that you would be sorted into Gryffindor.  I'm sorry, but we just have to stick together, okay?!

1. Food.  No, I'm not even kidding.  You feed me, I love you.  That's the way it works.


SEVEN THINGS THAT CROSS YOUR MIND A LOT:

7. God, I'm stupid sometimes.

6. I'm bored.

5. I wanna watch [insert scifi show here]!!

4. I wanna read [insert book or manga here]!!!!

3. Ooh, he's cute.

2. [random self-indulgent-fantasy daydream]

1. Just wait until college, Callie.  All the boys will be avid readers there...  Just wait....


SIX THINGS YOU DO BEFORE YOU FALL ASLEEP:

6. Well, I have to make sure that I've had everything cleared.  E-mail, youtube, deviantArt, Twitter... all that junk needs to be checked one last time.

5. I try and get into my own bed whenever I can.  I hate other beds.

4. I have to get the pillows rearranged from sitting-up mode to going to bed mode.  (Which usually means toss all but one pillow aside.)

3. Make sure no one has talked to me for a while on any messenger service.  If not, I'll say goodnight.

2. Get my sleeping music all set up.

1. Daydream.  I think recently it's been something about the Doctor....


FIVE THINGS THAT FRUSTRATE YOU:

5. The fact that NONE of my friends EVER get their own bloody ride.

4. The fact that I'm spending my money away like a stupid teenager.

3. A slow internet connection.

2. People taking one too many jabs at me for the same thing.

1. My brother.


FOUR THINGS YOU LOVE TO DO ON RAINY DAYS:

4. Watch and listen to the rain.  Ooh, and smell the rain smell~

3. Getting all warm and cozy indoors.

2. Running/skipping/singing in the rain.

1. Puddles.  8DDD


THREE BIGGEST TURN ON'S:

3. Good hair.  Either blond or ginger or completely black.

2. Height.  A man I'm interested in -has- to be taller than me.

1. A good, strong and firm hug.  Best stuff ever.


TWO THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:

2. Do everything crazy that comes to my mind.

1. Pass on important knowledge and inspire future students.


ONE CONFESSION:

1. Ehhh.... this is tough.....  I BREAK THE LAW ALL THE TIME AND LOVE IT?!  (Seriously, though, I do.  But it's only dumb teenager stuff!  Nothing bad!!)

So, yesterday I went to a movie in AG park with Katie Holt, Amanda, Karl, Jeff, Nils, and Troy joined in.

I showed up with Karl a bit after 7:00 and the group sorta conglomerated pretty quickly. I don't know how we do it. You get a few teenagers together, and we just keep talking. Seriously, it's still a mystery to me how we keep up conversations.

Oh that's right. We make gay jokes about Nils and Jeff with Karl around. Gotta love a teenager's inability to care about political corectness.

Anyways, when the movie was starting, Amanda, Jeff, Troy and I were all wanting to sit in front, and Katie Holt knew we'd be loud so she didn't want to sit in front, but neither Katie or I had our glasses, so we split up into two groups. Idunno what the group in the back talked about, but our group in the front made sex jokes throughout the whole entire movie. I mean. Jeff + Amanda + Callie + Anyone else but especially Troy = Constant sex jokes. There are actually a lot in Night At The Museum, believe it or not.

Then we decided we'd hang out afterwards, 'cause we were teenagers and a movie's not enough to entertain us. We drove to Wendy's, but it was closed, so we J-walked over to Carl's Junior, which also closed, then we got yogurt from Fiji Yogurt. Quite yummy stuff. Especially since Amanda paid for mine. Yummmm, free food.

Then, we randomly drove to Amanda's house, and after getting there decided to call it a night. Teenagers. So fickle. Anyways, I drove Nils and Karl home, and on the way to Karl's, in my car, with The Lonely Island Playing, Nils acted like he was drunk. And it got to two people before we even got to Nils' house. Karl makes news travel fast. But yeah. Talked a little to Nils on the way to his house, and it was all cool beans.

Until my mom yelled at me for breaking curfew. Haha. Like I've not done that a million times before.

Just back from Karl and Bryanna's birthday party.

It was really fun. A blast, an absolute blast.

But I just feel sad right now.

Idunno, maybe it's watching the classic episodes of Doctor Who and seeing how mean the Doctor was.

But more than likely it's the fact that I finally deleted someone from my phone. It just doesn't feel like it'll work out, and so I'm not going to keep my hopes up for it. I haven't creid about it at all,which is weird. Because my past self was so afraid of losing her friends. So afraid of her little group splitting up, and when it did, it was kind of... yeah.

It feels like all my really precious friends are gone. Even though that's not true.

Ugh. I'll have to kick out the emo bug with some fun, I guess! And a lot of Doctor Who!

...Yeah. Hopefully that'll work.

Okay, so, let's talk about the lovely Harry Potter movie fun-time!!

Amanda Bryanna and I got to Mission Valley at like, 1:00 or something, and we were probably like, the fourth group in line. It was a little boring, 'cause we sort of had nothing to do. But it was also interesting looking at the people who had came to wait in line for the movie. We are a community, after all.

Amanda Bryanna and I kinda took shifts throughout the day to go look at Harry Potter stuff in Hot Topic, or to go eat something somewhere, or to go to the comic book store. It was pretty okay, too, until the line got really long. I mean, we had to crawl over people the whole entire time going back and forth.

But the people in the line were pretty cool. There was this one 19 year old dude, that I was talking to about the book with Bryanna and all the things that I had forgotten. And there was the most fabulous gay guy ever in the history of gay guys. And plenty of cute boys to oggle at~

Cree and Cotangent eventually joined us, but at like 8:30, so we weren't too impressed with them, seeing as we had been waiting for HOURS. But still, it was fun when Cree showed up because she's fantastic.

I need to hang with Cree more. D:

ANYWAYS, at like, 10:00 we got in, and Amanda sort of ran, but that was chillio. We got to theatre 10, although, I admit, we should have gone to theatre 4. In the end though, there were like, 9 different theatres for one movie. It was fantastic. Then we started the 2 hour long wait....

Which went by incredibly fast. Mostly because we culminated as a community there~

Except for a few bitches. DDD: Though most of their bitchiness was directed at Amanda, who is the -loudest- person in movies -ever-. Seriously, go with Karl and Amanda to a movie and you'll possibly kill yourself. They are so mortifying. But still, it was a midnight movie, so it's more okay to scream and laugh and cry more and all that jazz.

As far as the movie goes, it wasn't fantastic. The acting, cinematography, and soundtrack was all fantastic, but the plot was absolutely all over the place. And there were a few major things left out/added in. Like the fact that they didn't mention the new minister of magic -at all- or the whole Percy problem. And the random burning down of the Burrow?! Not needed. Not needed at all.

But yeah. It was really good. When Dumbledore died, I was crying, which I didn't think I would do.

It was a lovely experience all together.

GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD, I hate being a woman.

But I looooooooooove Midol. It's like, five times better than ibuprofin. That's totally spelled wrong.

My nose hurts. I ran it into the shallow end of the pool after going under a lane line today at practice. Therefore, ow.

But extra ow 'cause I have no fooooooooooood. I'm so huuungry. And being so hungry is making me dizzy. Which I bet is bad.

Warehouse 13 was pretty cool. Sorta like a combo between Torchwood and.... Americanness.... yeah. Anyways, it's gonna be a fun show to follow.

Eureka's really cool too. I have to finish before Friday so I can follow the new season. Stark dying and leaving Allison available is soooo bitter with a taste of bittersweet. I always liked Carter and Allison, but I was starting to reeeeeeeeeeally like that one dry-cleaning chick that had my name. Oh well.

Ghost Hunters should totally have a Ghost Busters parody themesong thing. That would be funny.

I can't wait for Amanda's pool party on Friday. Freaking Dustin in her house. God, that's going to make me laugh. It'll be nice to see Anthony and Ricky again too, if they come.

I got food. But now I want cookies. D:

AAAAAAAAAAAAARGHHHHHHH, MY EYES. THEY'RE HURTING MORE. I had to swim 1,000 meters without goggles in polo. DDDDDX I need eyedrops.

I want cooooooooookieeeeeeeeeeees. Like the cookie monster. Nomnomnomnomnommmmm.

God, I feel so tired. I blame the fact that I woke up at 5:00 AM this morning due to cramps.

Yessssssssss, more Ghost Hunters. Cold War, whooooo!

Grah. But I seriously want to hit the sack, I'm hella tired.

Okay, time to post this. That's enough random for tonight.

Warning. This is a rant... That is all.

So I'm pissed. I don't know who reads this anymore, and honestly, I don't know why I go onto half of the sites that I go onto anymore. I've already cut the sites that I do visit into like, half or more but I digress. I think this is just here for me from now on. I look back on it just like I look back on other things. Plus it's a good way to keep things in my memory.

Anyways, back to the pissed part about this. Because of this whole thing of you people dumping me as a friend, I have to go through hell. I've lost three of the people who were closest to me. Probably my two oldest friends. The people, the only people, in fact, that I honestly thought I'd keep in touch with after high school. So as you can imagine, that was just fantastic.

Not only that, though. I lost my -best- friend. My best friend of several months. The person who I thought, if I did get married, would eventually be my maid of honor.

And all of this loss has culminated in me being not only extremely pissed off, more than that, extremely hurt. Because I still think that you guys are wrong. You've not seen me in front of my guy friends enough, and I've not been given enough evidence to even know what I did wrong, specifically.

I'm just gonna say things to you guys specifically, even though I know that none of you are reading. Guess that's why I can actually type it out.

Lina- Thanks for being a total and complete bitch to me for months. Freezing me out and not even treating me like a human, all the while you never even said anything to my face about me. Because, you know, it was nice to see how much you absolutely didn't care about me. What a brave move, to deal with me like I barely even existed instead of confronting me.

Kim- It's actually really open ended with you. If you want to back me, the person who has stuck with you through -everything- up until like, two months ago, I'd certainly appreciate it. But if you want to go with the people that started making me doubt my friendship with you in the first place, that's also your call.

Esther- I really don't know how to start. Because you've ruined basically doing anything for me. I can't go out -one day- without being reminded of your betrayal. And that's what I really think it is. So thanks for that stab in the back, thanks for ruining bean and cheese burritos, transformers, every single anime we've ever watched together, and my junior yearbook. Screwed the pooch on my memories, didn't ya? Oh. And after everything we've been through together, after all the laughs the tears and the inside jokes, thanks for being able to shut me out in an instant. For being able to drop me like last week's newspaper and not caring -one inch- about how much you hurt me. 'Cause that was just the best part of it all. The fact that I just became another one of the people you're able to hurt and not care about. I guess our friendship wasn't ever anything really special.

I wanted this to be a way of releasing out everything, but it sort of just made me sadder. That sucks. Yaaaaaaay for the memory of my junior year of high school being ruined forever.

Had a loooong day today, but it was a good one.

I reallllly needed today, too. Like. I needed today like I needed Japan last spring break.

Aaaaaaaaanyways, it was interesting today, 'cause we said we'd get there by 11:00, and we ended up getting there at like.... 12:30. I brought Amanda and Lazer and we met up with Nilsio at the beach, and that was interesting, 'cause we drove around -everywhere- looking for some weird street that's supposedly a great beach spot... which Amanda and Lazer found AFTER they went around walking.

Katie Holt showed up soon after, and Amanda's friend Molly much later, too. We had a lot of food, and I had a LUNCHABLE. There were all types of food. And I was gonna eat right after we got settled, but Nils and Amanda went in the water and I just ditched my lunchable. Which probably got me burnt.

I actually didn't swim for a whole lot. Amanda and Lazer went on that walk, and so Nils, Katie Holt and I were kinda left to just laze around. It was okay, though. 'Cause I talked a lot to Katie Holt and eventually ended up listening to Incredibad with Nils on my iPod.

It was the epitome of teenagerdom. It was what summer during high school was all about, and I'm soooo glad I got to go. Too bad Surge freaking kiiiiiiilled me afterwards. It was like, major ow. But still. Really really really needed today. So badly it almost hurt.

[sigh] I'm not even sure why I'm still writing here anymore. Anyone actually reading?